Wow... 55 days can you believe that... I sure can't, the time is flying by..
Sorry that I did not log in the last couple of days... Playing catch up with so many things. The only thing I am not playing catch up with is my weight.. ( Thank God!) I am not going to lie.. there were hiccups, but where there are hiccups there is a glass of water.. ( now did that make sense. ) I guess what I am trying to say is that thankfully I have become aware of all my hiccups and I acknowledge them and then move on... I can't be sitting here feeling sorry for myself. I need to understand that there will be good days and bad days... I didn't get where I am today overnight.. Now even though if feels like that by looking at those pictures of me.. But I am also very aware that I will not lose it overnight either..
At times I ask myself what is happening deep inside of me? There is this inner voice is so much stronger than me.. When did that inner voice which only thinks about food take over.. I am an educated woman... I know what is right and wrong when it comes to healthy eating so why is it that my mind wanders and tell me to eat things that are wrong for me? Why is it so difficult to get handle on that inner voice that only thinks about food...
I see all these people that lose 100+ pounds and how they struggled too.. There has to be something that can help us conquer that voice.. If you are not 100+ overweight you cannot relate. It really is difficult to explain. But there is something stronger than you telling you and tempting you to eat things that are not good for you... You tend and work very hard at combating that inner voice, but let me tell you, there are times where you get tired...
I fight with myself everyday.. I argue with my inner voice telling me to sit back watch TV or surf the Internet instead of doing 1/2 hour of exercise...It's a struggle day in and day out...
My goal is to combat that voice... The new voice should be telling me to get up and move, to eat that banana instead of the banana cream pie... ( only kidding) but seriously, if you do not have that problem where you inner voice tells you to do the right thing, then I will tell you first hand that it is the most difficult part of losing weight and reaching your goal.. That is why so many people fail. Because it over takes them and you get tired of trying to fight it day in and day out... But I have not given up... I can't wait til the day where I can write that I have defeated that inner voice, and that it has gone far away... That is the day that I will be able to make the choices without that struggle and understand that I am in it for me.. and no one else...I want to be around for a pretty long time... as there are so many things I still need to experience..
Thanks everyone for you support and weigh in day tomorrow.... oh lala..
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